"SHIRT OFF, BY THE LAKE"
BY HENRY CARNELL
my left nipple scab, undone
like a snakeskin, a chrysalis
held on by a couple threads
before slipping off,
sensationless.
the geese make trails of white,
breaking the green gloom into
shards of sky, heads ducking
down into the up, the occasional
full breasted flap.
the gum of surgical glue,
purple like an open wound,
tugging and tugging
until the bare lips
of the scar purse
yawning, blushing in
the new air.
the ducks shadow the geese,
the ducklings shadow
the ducks, the water shadows
the ducklings, the sun unshades
them all.
sensation hits my finger
tips, electric dissociation
up wrist
up forearm
up bicep
up armpit
to silent scars, senseless.
eventually, you will
brush them with your
lips. eventually, nerves
will subsume.
meanwhile, the webbed feet
of the great geese investigate
the shore before
tucking and gliding back
into the lake, leaving me to
grow outside my gauze.
A. Henry Carnell is a trans* zine-maker and poet, active in mutual-aid organizing and environmental education. Their poem, "someday your animal," was a 2023 Best of the Net anthology finalist. Currently, they are working in journalism and publishing. You can find him at @hencarnell on Twitter or roaming the streets of Eugene, OR.